Writing
For this post I will submitting peices of writing. This post will be ongoing.
Written in October:
You’ve caught me. You’ve already roped in, so tie me tight so there is no escape this time. Last time you held me lose and I was able to run with every ounce of energy I had. And I ran to avoid and hide from any potential feelings that will continue to grow with you. But just bind our connections with knots- make it flawless and make it permanent. I officially give in- you have me. You’ve grown accustom to chasing me, but baby I’m tired of running. There is no hiding from you. I run because I don’t want to get hurt, I run because I don’t want to admit that I love you. I thought being without you would help but I’ve never been more wrong. Your absence is cold and my presence is soothing so make it stick. You can’t deny what the heart refuses to let go. And you can’t dismiss the feelings that you always feel. And I have always felt things for you. We’ve turned out friendship up a level then turned it off, we’ve tried to undo a friendship but I’d rather have you in my life as something then not in my life at all. So weather you are in my life as a friend or in my life as unlabeled lover I don’t care, because I’ve grown the need for you. We can not continue to ignore what just won’t go away despite or consistent best efforts. This may be the stupidest jump I’ve ever taken. We may have nothing in common but you won’t leave my head. I’ve learned in my short life that love is stupid and it makes you do stupid things. I’ve learned that falling for someone and letting someone in just leads to regret, pain, despair and loneliness. Who in their right mind would be willing to jump into that? Well baby as I’ve said you got me. Stupidity has grown to be a way of life for us, so make me dumb. Let un indulge in stupid actions and drown in naive words that will soon leave us scarred and broken- but until then, bring me back to life the way you always do.
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